language

dont know why suddenly today im in the mood to blog. maybe coz its a friday and tomorrow is gonna be depressing for me. syiqah blogged bout the how people say malay girls who speak english a lot have already forgotten their roots. all i wanna say is this : kalo kitorang ckp english pun, bukannye kitorang tak reti ckp melayu kan?? ade ke kitorang berlagak nak ckp bombastik nye english kat korang? takde kan?

the thing is, we dont speak english coz we wanna berlagak/perasan terer. dah tentu in this era of globalisation, and we also live in a world where english is so the very penting, of coz lah kene ckp english kan..ive been schooling in an english school for the past 10 years. majority of the students are non malays and my close frens are non malays. okay, so you may say why cant they speak malay instead? well..fact is, sometimes we do use malay to speak. like me, cheryl, sindhu, joey, florence, irene all pernah speak malay to each other ape.

whatsmore, being in convent means you have to know how to speak english if you dont want to be discriminated. The stigma is this : malay girls dunno how to speak english

so why dont we change that mindset?? huh?


i hate the fact that language barrier is a problem for me to communicate with people. i go tuition, the malay students look at me one kind coz i speak english with my friends. then i find out they are intimidated coz i speak english and therefore i am sombong or too "high standard" to be their friends. its a really menyakitkan hati punye thing coz some of the guys are cute! and they think this and that bout girls like us. hampeh.


okay, so i listen to english music, watch english movies, read only english books, write in english, talk in english 90% of the time, doesnt mean i have forgotten about my malay roots. I just prefer things in english. That's all. It's my domain. I know when to speak malay and who to speak malay to. I realise that this has become some sort of sensitive issue in our lives.

personally, it causes a minor identity crisis in me. i know this applies to some as well. It's like...when you speak english in the presence of the malays who dont, you'd feel conscious. Why? Coz we're afraid of what they may think or say. macam tak kene tempat la.

i do converse mostly in english and as embarrassing as it is, my bm's getting worse. haha. in exams that is.

i knw what people would say to this : just be yourself.

but sometimes its not that easy.

Yesterday, 10th april, we had a majlis anugerah cemerlang for those who got straight A's for PMR and SPM. They gave us a rm50 worth of mph voucher. i'd prefer cash lorh. hampeh. anyway, while waiting for the damn thing to start, we were all shipped off to the canteen to sit there quietly. hah. as if. With almost half of em being prefects, the canteen was as noisy as ever. kihkih. so, we (me, joey, florence, syiqah, cheryl, ilham n irene) sat at the same table under the fan obviously(otherwise cheryl would complain). I brought my camera and so..well...what else could we have done except..........



poyo's #1, 2, 3 and tangan ayam.




We also spent a lot of time taking candid shots of cheryl tan who was full of random facial expressions. hahahah!!









Aren't they just plain amusing?? hehehhee









"i'm choking! aakk!! akkk!! (yes jo, thats exactly how u sound.) =p



Joey having a bloody hard time trying to button her collar. lol





May i present, THE NERD+GEEK+SENGAL version of Joey Woo!!


Joey doing her tongue stunt thingy and syiqah menyibuk coz she tak dpt masuk
gambar. hahaha!

Here we have syiqah yakking away, irene looking bored as usual, and joey, obviously, ready to fall asleep anytime. hahah!

Was damn funneh. We took videos of em singing to the lemon tree song(malay version courtesy of cheryl tan) wont go home without you, where all of us sang, and are you gonna be my girl, by ilham and chicken).

~ngeee