remembering

What would it take to always remember? To remember how it used to be, how it used to feel..There will be a phase where everything is forgotten and suddenly, out of nowhere it comes back to u and hit u, hit u and tell u that u're going too fast..that some things have changed and u dont even realise. And when that happens, u wont even know how to feel. Sad? What for? Happy? Why? Confused, perhaps. But you dont even know what to feel confused about. Eventually you realise that there is no more feeling, that everything is just plain neutral. And then you decide u want to feel again..that u want to remember and u never want to forget.

Things may just pass by you and u wont notice it. And then when u finally do, it wont even make anymore difference. But sometimes it doesnt work that way. Sometimes u would miss something and u would want it back. But u cant. And you have no choice but to move on. And then, everything in the past is just a blur. And you wont even know where you're going. What you're about to face and what you should be wary of. When u lose certain things, you dont go mad. Unless that is, u have OCD. U lose a sock, u dont cry ur heart out..u lose a pencil, you dont go into some nervous breakdown. But losing a memory, forgetting something that means the most to you, and lastly, feel indifferent about it. Yes, you get over it. By substituting the old with the new.